As most of you know, my husband and I are high school sweethearts. He was a United States Marine and planned to make a career of doing that which he loved. Nothing was more fulfilling to him than being a Marine. While studying at Auburn University with hopes to become an officer in the Marines, Andrew worked several jobs at once. (He's such a hard worker. We truly help balance each other out. He helps me to strive to work hard and I help him to take in all the small moments missed from working too much.) One of the jobs he held was at a law firm. Little did we know the plans the Lord had for us. Nothing to do with the Marines (say what?) and a lot to do with law (say WHAT? )
You see, Andrew gave his life to Jesus while we were at Auburn. And, the Lord gives us visions and responsibilities beyond our wildest dreams.
So, we moved to Birmingham for Andrew to attend law school. We had a beautiful baby boy! Andrew graduated, a day we couldn't believe was finally here (our schedules + a newborn was quite hectic to say the least). Although it was pure chaos, we were well grounded on the foundation that this was a Lord thing. After all, we never wanted to go to law school. .or be an attorney...but the Lord did so here we were.
The bar exam came and we missed it by 10 points. 10 POINTS! Out of 256 points, we needed TEN measly points. Are you kidding me?! We hit a brick wall. Maybe I should say I more than we. While Andrew was disappointed at first, he immediately reapplied and got refocused. Me, on the other hand, I was infuriated. God, how could you do this to me and my family? We've spent countless days apart, we've sacrificed safety for driving to do what YOU wanted. And YOU let us down.
I literally sat reading the Lord's word in such anger. I couldn't hear him. I couldn't feel him. He was so far away. He had brought us here and then left us feeling all alone. But I kept reading anyway. I was reading Isiaiah. Nothing added up or made sense in my mind. But I kept reading anyway. One day, my anger disappeared, my hope was restored, and I realized we only want to be where the Lord wants us WHEN he wants us there. If it's not where He wants us or when, then we don't want to be there. The Lord became so clear on every page.
The bar exam came once again. We missed it by six points. Did we cry together? Yes. Were we disappointed? Yes. But we earnestly sought the Lord before reapplying for the bar again. Since then, the Lord has abundantly filled us with his spirit. We've prayed for a church here for four years. We finally found the one for us - that's on fire for Jesus and shows us how to use our gifts for the Lord's glory. We hoped somehow Andrew could get plugged in even though he works on Sundays. We met a great group of people through small groups who genuinely care and pray for Andrew and this bar exam. We got to participate in serving our community and continue to get visions of how to serve the Lord through law. It's not because of anything we have done. All we've done is sought the Lord. He had something huge in store for each of us if we just seek Him.
People continually ask us how we are so positive and how we do it? People, Jesus is all we've got. And, it's ALL we want. Last week's sermon sums up what I've been trying to say all along. It's about the process. The Lord gives us a vision. And there's a period of time in between the vision and the reward. It's called the process.
We've had our heads buried in prayer and continue to look up only for a moment to say do you see anything yet (Passing bar results)? So far our results are no not yet. But we continue to go back. We continue to bury our heads in prayer and continue to go back because it's the Lord's vision, not our own. It's the Lord's will, not our own. That's how we're so positive and able to do this. It's not our might or power but His. We're so grateful to be in the presence of a living God and His truth to prosper and not harm us. We're so grateful for the process. Because we're closer to the Lord than either of us have ever been our entire lives. And we wouldn't be if we had passed the bar right away. And that's simply worth it.
If there's something He's given you a vision for, a job He needs you to do, don't give up. Persevere and you'll out run even a chariot!
Here's a link to the sermon if you're interested in hearing it:
http://churchofthehighlands.com/media/message/making-faith-work
Much Love,
Summer


